Dearest Chloe Faith,
Precious baby girl, oh how the thought of you makes my heart smile and overflow with love and joy. Hearing, writing or speaking your name reminds me of the treasured gift you are.
Chloe, I have dreamed of being your mommy my whole life. I've never wanted anything more. I don't understand why our time together was so short, yet I value every moment. I know you are in a much better place. The best place you could be - in the arms of Jesus and my mom. Yet, we miss you so and long for the life we missed out on. Hearing you laugh, seeing you sleep, smile, play, dance - live.
Everything is different now that you are gone. Nothing will be as we planned - Mother's Day, Father's Day, Christmas or September 4 when you were due. We are different now because of you. Our lives are forever changed. Our hearts are marked with your hand and foot prints forever.
Thank you for the way you touched our lives and the lives of so many. Chloe, people have been praying for you all over the country. That such a tiny little girl could inspire so many people to pray and show acts of love to us is amazing. You have touched so many people Chloe, and I know your story will continue to inspire.
My friend, Lynne, had a picture of you in Heaven. You were walking with Jesus and picking out your future brother or sister. And Jesus just looked at you and smiled as you walked along. Was it like that, Chloe?
I picture you walking with Jesus holding your left hand and my mom holding your right hand. You are beaming and laughing as you take quick little steps and they lift you in the air to swing from their hands. You giggle and glow and want to do it over and over again. And Jesus and mom love you so much and take such good care of you that they just keep walking and playing. Is it like that Chloe?
I want every moment for you to be filled with joy, wholeness and giggles. And that's exactly how I imagine it is. I know you are in the right place because your life on Earth wouldn't have been like that. I don't know that I'll ever understand this side of Heaven why it had to be that way. But I trust God and know He loves you even more than we do and knows what is best.
Ask Jesus to tell you all about your Daddy. Chloe, he is so funny. And it means so much to him to be your Daddy. He has been waiting a long time to be your Daddy too. He light ups when he talks to you or about you. He couldn't wait to meet you and take care of you. He is such a joker that I know you would have had such fun together. You are his precious baby girl and your bond with your Daddy is more special than I can even fathom. But I see how much it means to him every time he talks about you. It touches my heart so and makes me love both of you even more, which doesn't seem possible, and yet it is. Chloe, our hearts have grown because of you. We can love more because of you.
I can't wait to see your face - here on Earth and in Heaven. You are 100% restored and healthy in Heaven and that is a picture my heart longs to see. In the meantime, we will treasure the short time we still have with you here. Making memories every moment.
We love you sweet girl. Thank you for changing our lives forever.
5 months ago