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Even though it’s hard to see now, I trust that God will work something good out of this situation. “And we know that I all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
No matter what “hell” I have to walk through, God will be there with me. He never separates Himself from me. “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39
God will get me through this. “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
God is with me even on the blackest days. “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me.” Psalm 23:4
God loves me and even though I don’t understand it all, His ways for me are the very best. “All the paths of the Lord are lovingkindness and truth to those who keep His covenant and His testimonies.” Psalm 25:10
As I am patient, I will see more of God’s helping hand in this loss. “I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27:13-14
As I look to God for Help, He will give me stability, joy, and security. “I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure.” Psalm 16:8-9
God will lead us when we make decisions about another pregnancy. “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch you.” Psalm 32:8
One way or another God will make children a part of our family and home. “He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap; he seats them with princes of their people. He settles the barren women in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the Lord.” Psalm 113:7-9
God is on my side. “The Lord is with me, I will not be afraid…the Lord is with me; he is my helper.” Psalm 118:6-7
God knows me inside and out and accepts me 100% in this miserable state. “O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.” Psalm 139:1
The joy of the Lord is my strength. Nehemiah 8:10
Psalm 139 is an example of a beautiful prayer that David, the psalmist, wrote to God. When reading these scripture verses and viewing them in relation to recent pregnancy loss; we find great comfort. Be encouraged by the truths set forth:
* God know everything about me and my baby. "...you know everything about me." (Psalm 139:1)
* At every moment, God knows where I and my baby are. "Every moment you know where I am." (Psalm 139:2)
* God's hand of blessing is on me and my baby. "You place your hand of blessing on my head." (Psalm 139:5)
* My baby has not gone into "nothingness," my baby is with God. "I can never be lost to your Spirit! I can never get away from my God!" (Psalm 139:7)
* Even though I feel alone and the blackness of death is all around me, God is as present with me and my baby now as He was when things were bright and cheery. "For even darkness cannot hide from God; to you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are both alike to you." (Psalm 139:12)
* God was fully aware of the baby forming in my womb. "You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body, and knit them together in my mother's womb." (Psalm 139:13) "You were there while I was being formed in utter seclusion." (Psalm 139:15)
* God was completely aware of the formation of my baby at every stage of life. "You saw me before I was born." (Psalm 139:16)
* God has sovereign knowledge about each person's time for life and death. "You...scheduled each day of my life before I began to breathe." (Psalm 139:16) God knew all about the days of my baby in my womb. My baby is a very real person to God.
* God is constantly mindful of me in my suffering and constantly mindful of my baby in His presence. "How precious it is, Lord, to realize that you are thinking about me constantly! I can't even count how many times a day your thoughts turn towards me. And when I awake in the morning, you are still thinking of me." (Psalm 139:17-18)
I'm the wife of an amazing husband the and mother of a precious baby girl, Chloe Faith, who was stillborn on April 19, 2008. I am also a daughter, sister, auntie, niece, cousin, friend, educational consultant, Sunday School preschool teacher and hopeful woman who knows that although Chloe is at the forefront of everything in my life right now, there are many facets to my life.